Sharing The Love

For several consecutive Sundays, the Love of God has been preached in our church and I can’t help but be amazed at the expanse of God’s love for mankind.

Over and over again, we heard it being said that we have to extend this love to our fellows, in the most expressive way that we can, leaving all selfishness aside, and just plainly offer our service to those who are in need, be there for those who love us, and go as far as loving those who hate or dislike us.

A Christian who genuinely seeks to please the Lord would work hard in loving his neighbor as his own self. After all, Paul made it clear that even after doing all the kind deeds we know, if love is lacking, then it all means nothing. Our motives should be always in line with God’s will, and His ultimate will for us in this world is to be the ‘light’ and ‘salt’ to the people. We can’t passionately do that unless we truly love.

As we seek on being the person that God wants us to be, we may find it hard to do things with love all the time.
How could you possibly love someone who is intenionally hurting you?
How can you love someone who does everything to destroy you?
How can you love someone who cause pain to your family?
How can you love someone who ruins your reputation?
How can you love someone who tears you down?

In my post about Essau, we know how everything turned all right in the end even when Essau was very angry after Jacob stole his father’s blessing. But of course, before they crossed paths again, Essau had enough time to meditate, accept, and get over with his grief and anger. We don’t know how long it took for him to finally forgive his brother, but I’m certain that it took time. Like any other painful circumstance that we encounter, it always takes time to heal the wounds of a scarred soul.

I know that at times, it would seem impossible for us to simply show genuine kindness to people who angers us, especially when the issues involve are still fresh and we still feel outraged about what has been done to us.
But it’s part of working to live for the Lord.

The things that may look so hard at first may be the very things that will be most beneficial for us in the end. They can help us become stronger, wiser, and allow us to see the surprising lessons of life that we could use in the future.

So as the second quarter of the year begins, let us remind ourselves of our true purpose, our calling. And that is to introduce Jesus to everyone and extend His love even to those who are so hard to love. After all, the people who might be very hard to love are the ones who need love the most.

Share the love! ❤

Summary of 2013

I consider last year to be the most challenging year of my life.

It was the year that God finally brought us to a church where we felt so at home. Not that we never felt that way from the other places that we’ve been to since the day we moved from our hometown. But we just felt that kind of feeling when you meet some kindred spirits.

Months passed and I really got involved in the church. I never say no to anything that my pastor or his wife asked me to do for the church, especially when it comes to music because our family made a promise to the Lord that we will allow Him to use us in His service wherever we are. I felt a great passion for the music ministry in church that I even asked my pastor if I could teach voice lessons. It was all great for me. I feel like I’m making the Lord proud by sharing with others the things that I learned throughout the years to improve myself and become a better singer for the Lord.

But behind all that, I was suffering from a broken heart. For that entire year, I fought really hard against my emotions and desperately asked the Lord to hold me together so I won’t break down. It’s a challenge to cry your heart out at night and wake up the next day to lead the singing of praises and worship with a forced smile. Still, I kept moving forward.

Meanwhile, the enemy thought that he could finally destroy me. And at that state of brokenness, he added a lot of messy events until I reached the point where I’m already telling myself, ‘As long as I still have my pastor’s confidence, it’s all that really matters.’ Needless to say, because of my sudden exposure in music in our place, there have been plenty of misunderstandings and wrong impressions. I taught songs, led the singing, but deep inside I’m in pain and I tried so hard to hide that. By that time, all I could ask from the Lord is for Him to make these moments pass by so quickly that I wouldn’t feel so much agony for a long time. I wanted to ask my pastor to just apoint somebody else so I could run away from all the negativity around me. Even my family suffered deeply, and it’s been tough because I can’t find any friend whom I can share my troubles with. But then again, I promised the Lord that I will do my very best in everything that He wants me to do, so as long as my pastor believes in me, that means the Lord is still on my side, so I will just do my job and keep my promise. I keep on telling myself that the enemy is just so desperate to destroy the children of God that he (the devil) would even try to break our relationships and make us go against each other so that we will scatter and end up getting angry with the Lord.

So despite every emotion that tried to pull me down, I gave what I think is the best that I can do for God. And it really made me so happy, so fulfilled! After a while, God made a way to break the wrong impressions and misunderstandings, so I felt more relieved that I never gave up. And even before that, I already got invitations to sing at two concerts hosted by two pastors from other churches. I’ve never felt so awesome! Just like everybody else, I also feel unworthy to be a part of His ministry and I don’t think that I’m really a good singer, but to know that God can use me even at the worst moments of my life is a proof that He can use our brokenness to help us become better individuals that He wants us to be! It’s not only for us to become stronger, but it’s also for us to know that no matter what happens, we can still live up our purpose as long as we don’t forget that He will always be with us! To God be all the glory!

Lately I have been wonderUntitleding… What if I’m the Essau in this story? What if I’m not Jacob?

In every story, there’s always a hero. And as such, there’s also a villain – the bad guy, the antagonist, or whatever you want to call him.

Then, I realized, it’s not always the case.

Yes, Essau has never been a perfect man. And neither is Jacob.

The first mistake that Essau committed was selling his birthright to his younger brother. He was so tired and hungry and very desperate to eat.  His weakness took over which resulted to his total abandonment of his firstborn privilege.

With his brother taking advantage of the situation, he wasn’t able to think very well and at that moment he was no longer consciously aware of what he’s losing. Until that moment of truth arrived – Isaac is dying and has to bless the firstborn while time still permits.

Essau was angry. When he found out what his brother did, he cried to his father. He begged for his blessing. He was still angry with his brother even after Isaac blessed him and he vowed (to himself) that he will soon kill Jacob (Gen.27:41). If Essau finally realized his mistake at that point was a mystery. But from the Sunday school stories I’ve heard over and over again, the only thing that has registered in my mind is how Jacob escaped, with the help of Rebecca because she heard Essau’s plan on killing Jacob.

After so many years, the time has finally arrived for them to cross paths again. I can actually feel Jacob’s anxiousness while preparing to meet his brother. He has confidently gained blessings from the Lord. But then, deep in his heart, he knew that he also did something wrong. After all those years of receiving favor from the Lord, he is now about to face one of the greatest challenges in his life. He lived a good life only to realize that there’s been a buried fear in him – a fear of facing his older brother again and be confronted with his wrath for being cheated.

But nobody could’ve ever anticipated Essau’s reaction. He directly went to hug his brother tightly and kindly declined when Jacob offered his gifts for him. For Essau, the most essential thing at the moment is to see that his little brother is doing well and has been abundantly blessed by the Lord.

Taking a closer look, we know that it was really Essau’s fault that the blessing was taken from him. But when his anger vaulted from realization of that fact, we may conclude that he could be very angry enough with his brother to consider talking to him again.

However, he has been a perfect example of what a true Christian must be – knows how to accept mistakes, knows how to be humble and knows how to refrain from living with bitterness.

And speaking of bitterness, I sadly say that I have so much of that – stuffed inside my heart. Yet it’s amazing how the wonderful life of Essau has opened my eyes into a wider understanding of the things that happened and are still happening in my life. And whenever I’m about to speak ill words against someone who hurt me so bad or even planned on taking revenge, I can hear the Lord whispering in my ears, “Remember the life of Essau…”

Okay, Lord. Yes, I’ve been hurt. I may have felt cheated. I may have felt betrayed. I may have felt rejected. But I have a God who can heal me. I have a God who can turn the messy events of my life into a powerful testimony. And the people whom I considered traitors, hypocrites, and haters are not perfect. But hey, neither am I!

So instead of wasting my energy on pouring angry words out and end up regretting whatever hateful words I could have said, I learned to simply ask the Lord to forgive me, for I may only have been blinded that it was in fact my fault that these troubles are happening to me.

Truthfully speaking, it will be hard to become a bitter-less Essau all the time. But then again, that would be a great challenge for us Christians, especially now that the prophecy in Revelation are already happening.

And while everybody are busy talking and debating about how the end will take place or who the anti-Christ will be or if the present self-proclaimed prophets/dreamers are real, I think, I want to be more concerned with allowing the glory of God to illuminate through me by freeing myself from bitterness and continually living up my purpose, rather than spending time in sulking and letting my anger get the best of me until I forget what I’m called for.

What about you?

Living the Dream

Don’t we all have dreams? Don’t we all wish for some things to happen in our lives? Or get the things that we really want to have? Or share great times with the people we love?

A lot of people work hard every single day for something that they want to achieve in the future. If you ask the peoplearound you for the reason why they are doing whatever they are doing right, you’ll most probably get answers like “I’m saving up for a car”, “I’m preparing for my business plan”, “I’m expecting a baby”, “I have debts to pay”, “The house loan is my priority right now, so I’m working extra hard”.

There are hundred more reasons out there and it’s always about the future. People are always worried about the future. They are always planning for the future. Sad to say, most people also miss the fun of the present because of the future.  Continue Reading »

Only Entering the Open Door

Open DoorAs of this moment I’m still in tears, overwhelmed by the unconditional love of Jesus. From the time He was born until the day He shed His blood on the Cross…From the time I was born until the day I’m typing this blog, He never ceases to amaze me with His overflowing love.

I’m always speechless.

I don’t know if there would be an adjective word that can define what I feel right now but I can’t stop myself from sharing His goodness. He has done so many great things in my life…

I can’t simply hold it!

A few days ago, I lay in bed, overpowered by sickness due to the unstable weather and consecutive sleepless nights (as a preparation for our youth seminar). My mind is also stressed out with some things I’m so worried about. I have a great feeling that my physical body just resigned and was drained by my stressed mind and so I got sick.

I’m not sure if this was God’s way of telling me to stop, relax, take a deep breath and just simply trust Him. For the past few weeks, I was drowned in worried thoughts. There are just so many things that I wanted to happen in my life so bad. There are also things that I’m afraid to lose…scared to give up. Oh, just thinking about giving up the things that I wanted so bad or giving up on people that are so dear to me…it already breaks my heart. Continue Reading »

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